Getting closer to the end...

OK, I know it's been awhile, but I have actually been pretty busy (compared to the last few months). My parents left yesterday morning after having been here for a week. My brother and his kids were in town also. So I was up and around, and actually left the house quite a bit.

Having my parents here was such a blessing. Of course it was good for the house, as they are both so helpful, but it was great for me and the kids to recharge our batteries. It had been a year since I'd seen my step-dad, and I missed them so much. I know it was a long trip, but thank you both for coming. We miss you already.

Yesterday I had my second to last chemo treatment. That means that in 2 weeks I will have my last treatment, then I will be done. I am completely believing that the cancer is gone and that I am cured. Yeah I know that there is that 10-20% chance that it will come back, but I am just not going to focus on that right now. All I want is to get my life back to as close to normal as possible. I still have another month before I have to go back to work. By then all of the drugs will be out of my system and I should be able to start gaining some weight. Do you know how surreal that is? For the last 15 years all I have been obsessed with was losing 20 lbs. Now I have to gain at least 20 lbs. How wild is that? I thought that losing weight would make such a difference in my life. Now I can honestly say that I would love to be at my old weight again. I can't stand being this thin and I hate how I look. I am hovering between 100 and 105 lbs, and I think I look skeletal. I am only 5 foot 2.

I think the thing I am most looking forward to in the coming months (besides getting my energy level back) is growing my hair and being able to BRUSH it again. I really, really miss washing and brushing my hair. Yeah, it's the little things I guess. That, and being in uniform again, and working out. I am starting to feel very civilian lately. Not that that is a bad thing, but I miss my career and the work I was made to do. I even miss the combat boots and having to put my hair up. I guess I won't have to worry about the hair thing for awhile. I would kill to have a pony tail again.

I also really miss being in school. I am anxious to get back in classes and finish up my degree. Only 11 classes to go,and hopefully I can graduate late next year or early in 2011. Man, that sounds like a long way off. I thought I would be done by now. But I really didn't count on having to take almost a year off to fight cancer. What a time suck. But very soon, this will be over and I will start my life again. Be prepared for more upbeat posts and a happier, more positive Military Mom. Count on it.